From you - through me

I knew you before 

I met you.

I felt you many times 

back then.

when I was looking into the ocean.

You know, I give you permission to break me again.

And you are scared

because you know it.

How come when I find myself

you find me too?

The easiest part was to start believing again

it took me 30 years or so

You touch my arm 

and it sets a fire in my mind.

my favorite time of the day
is 
you

Once again .. about love

LOVE is not for a weak, it's made for the strong. 

It's how we become to be warriors.

LOVE is delicate and it's real. Love is phenomenal for most. 
Love is LIFE, life is LOVE
It was made to be lived, to be loved. It's like a molten rock if it didn't leave a trail of devastation and cause destruction to everything you once thought you were, then you simply did it wrong.

xxx

BROKEN

My heart was broken 3 times

all 3 times by myself.

~

I knew it will happen
and I ran into your arms anyway

~

What's matter the most 
I would do it AGAIN!

Christmas madness

WHAT CHRISTMAS MEANS TO YOU?

Everyone keeps asking me, while I find myself living in South East Asia, to be persist in Cambodia, where local people has no idea about it and the idea they are getting is very wry and wrong. 
As American culture is taking over and "Starbucks" is THE place to be, I find myself feeling angry, sad and helpless.
My answer is 'TIME FOR FAMILY' That special closeness to every single family member, that magic jolly feeling in the air- happiness, but it's not just daily happiness, it's gratefulness, more likely, appreciation for what you got and the greatest thing we got is the FAMILY.

Nowadays I find myself very disappointed with people, who makes it into some kinda social event, consumers celebration, the opportunity to buy tons of crap, to play the game of who will get a better gift, or throws the best dinner party.
More glitter, more bling bling, more sales, more chocolate, more more more..
It makes me depressed and super lonely. I am not a big Christian myself, but does anyone really remember what is Christmas after all, why do people actually celebrates it.. what happened on THE day..
No, no one stops, no one thinks, no one realises, because everyone is too busy standing in the queue for one more unnecessary STUFF.

I don't want to buy gifts to every single colleague, because I am in this happy(mad) state of gifting everyone some STUFF they don't need, and I don't want to eat the chocolate cake while I'll be sick, and I don't want to buy STUFF, because is Christmas sales, and I don't need my Christmas tree to be the biggest in the neighborhood.

I find myself living in Cambodia and consuming so little, I don't need new shoes, I don't need new dress, I don't need one more perfume, cup, teapot all I NEED is NOTHING. I am surviving just fine without all that STUFF..

So I have decided to spend Christmas far from home and my family, don't get me wrong is the conscious decision after loosing the Grandad (the head of the family) my childhood magical Christmas is gone and I can't put my head around it to be sitting by the same table and not having him on my right (as we always had our own seats, every single year the same ones) and this year there is no Grandma either.. I know, I am locked in my childhood magical Christmas memories and I want to stay there.

So Merry Christmas Everyone! 

*Maybe stop for a second and ask yourself WHAT CHRISTMAS MEANS TO YOU!?

WHEN I MISS CREATIVE AIR

THEN I MISS CREATIVE AIR..

Every time he is writing to her no one knows if he means it.. 

But every time Laura does that, it means so much to her. 

 All Laura needs - is to keep writing so he GETS it, 

Somehow. 

Maybe not from the start, but he might understand 
After a while.

Only one question Laura has to herself 'Why she can't say..
 more, 

Sometimes'.

~

Next Summer

I will take the picnic blanket with the favorite cups for coffee

and I will come back

for a whole summer.

We will pick apples

and cycle.

Gaze to the same stars

like those summer nights before.

You will smell the same

because every summer you smell the same, just like apples.

..Next Summer

WHEN THE LAST TIME

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU:

• said 'Hello' to the stranger in the lift;
• complimented your colleague for the well done job;
• volunteered for a charity, not just planed to;
• appreciated cleaner sweeping your street;
• thanked people who helped you accomplished your success;
• grateful that you woke up;
• grateful that you lived, today;
• breathed-in very deeply;
• actually smelled the coffee you drinking;
• have a thought- 'what is my purpose in the world';
• genuinely asked the person 'how is your day';
• hand wrote * your name and signature in the bank doesn't count;
• woke up 1 hour earlier then needed;
• did what you said you will do;
• ticked your bucked-list;
• listen to live classic music;
• looked into your dark side;
• woke up happy...

CHANGES

'There come the time then you decide to change IT.. and its never too late or too early.

There is the right time for YOU.. It grows within you, you can feel it almost every minute, if you are aware it always around.. and suddenly even universe helps you to do it.. changes are always GREAT thing, you just need to grow to it'

Career change is always risky. But if you have a good understanding of why you’re leaving your current career, the clarity can give you the strength to enter new opportunities.

Since you know you are going to have multiple careers in your life, changing is not high stakes. Don’t make a huge deal about it and don’t spend too long searching your soul. Just start testing the water — put a toe in to see how it feels. 

But first, before you do any of this, make sure it’s TIME for YOU to change what you’re doing.

My story is no different. Most of my life I have worked in hospitality sector and I can't say that I wasn't happy. It wasn't my dream job thought, but it was fun- meeting and socializing with so many unique, self-driven, engaging people, it was GREAT, actually! 

I wouldn't be who I am right now, if not all those years in worst and best restaurants in the world. But in my case I always had this itch - what's NEXT?! Is that's IT ?

New places, people, titles didn't satisfy me, even changing cities and continents left me feeling unfulfilled. 

Obviously there is many people who just keeps their head down and does what is comfortable- SAME.

My creative side has always bothered me the most. Since school days I loved writing a lot. Short stories, diaries, books, even poetry. 
And then it was music.. I played instruments-finished music school. Loved drawing too, just it wasn't my strong side. 
ART studies was big NO at that time, I used to think: It's impossible to make any living from arts anyway.  
But after all, the creative bug is coming out and I can't stop it. 
Just to let you know in this technology advanced century you can achieve anything you want by yourself. You don't need expensive universities or studies, everything is in front of you-in your laptop!

Again, it is mind blowing how Social Media is one of the strongest tools available to reach so easily to get all information and connections needed! just USE IT.

'As the millennial, I belong to generation who understands the concept of work- life balance and actually want to find fulfilling career'

Verdict: 'Action is the foundation key to all success'- Pablo Picasso

Good Luck in to Your Life Revolution xx